I’ve never posted for a while since our internet connection’s pretty messed up.

Anyway, to update.. Life has been so crazy. The bestfriend and I had been fighting like two crazy bitches every now and then but still managed to work it out. We kinda have this girlfriend-boyfriend relationship for bffs except we’re both girls. (NO HOMO though)

And since I already opened the “boyfriend-girlfriend” topic I’m going to tell you about this amazing guy I met on Twitter (Yup it’s crazy I know). Well he’s nothing but just an amazing 19-year-old guy from Kyle, TX. It started when he replied to my very random fan-girl tweet to Zack Merrick of All Time Low, and we never stopped talking since. In a matter 12 days (April 27, 2012 to today) I feel like I know him so well. It all happened pretty fast actually. I’m not saying that he’s “boyfriend” but I really like him and the feeling is mutual. Actually already told him that I’m going to marry him in the future because he’s just too perfect. He’s like the male version of me and my bestfriend, Cha, COMBINED! He used to be a cheerleader and he’s actually pretty funny. I enjoy talking to him and I never liked a guy SO fast and so much ever before that I wanna marry him and have his babies (like seriously). I adore him so much and makes me really happy. We called each other “baby” for the first time today (May 9 in Manila. May 8 in Texas) it’s like fucking time travel! 

Anyway, maybe things are happening all of a sudden, and maybe I trust so much..but if I don’t follow my heart right now I know I’m gonna regret this forever.

In addition to every recent happenings in my life, I am happy to announce that I’m already an intern! (lol this happened like a month ago already.. God! it’s been too long) The first two weeks were actually fun. It’s nice making friends and learning about the real world - except office jobs are really boring. I have nothing else to say about it.

So far… I’m living a good life and it’s so close to perfect!

I wanna thank God for all the gifts and blessings He has given me. I wouldn’t enjoy this life without the people I have in my life right now

xo,

Kam

Ps. I fainted in the office bathroom last Thursday, that’s why my boss and Ays had to take me to the hospital. I got two cuts and they were stitched. IT WAS AWFUL.

i actually did something that i’m not proud of :(

anyway, i went to chacha’s place today.. i told my mom i went to my OJT’s orientation and i really feel guilty. she gave me no choice..

on the other note, im actually surprised upon seeing my (used to be) little puppy.. he’s grown so big and leaving him is still so hard.

cha and i watched modern family the whole afternoon, we ate her favorite ice cream flavor, ate cheetos and had mountain dew. we also took flyzik for a shower, fun as usual :)

on my way home tonight i got really hungry so i thought of grabbing some food on the way home..so i bought yum burger with cheese and fries and a regular soda.. (it sucked) i was craving for dimsum (also i’m forever biased with mcdonald’s cheeseburger).. i wasnt really feeling well i’m inside the bus though. my tummy’s aching like shit and i thought it’s because i was just hungry then i ate something heavy suddenly.

when i got home i opened my computer and found out it was that time of the month. that explained the tummy cramps. (i didnt see that coming)

idk but she’s like always jealous of the people who comes into my life.. and i’m tired of explaining myself to her that i will never leave her and i’ll always be her friend… 

she keeps pushing me away, and obviously she just wants all my attention on her. which, i think, is not healthy. 

i don’t know what to do. i’m tired.

i don’t know but if she do that i’ll never forgive myself…. and i’ll probably live a miserable life.

my bestfriend’s actually thinking of committing suicide after what happened earlier and the past few days…..

i care about her so much and she has no idea

I wanna be like “come on, mum. give her a break”

I mean, my bestfriend’s like so terrified of her ever since. The least my mother could is to be nice to her if she’s all sincere that she wanted to reach out for my bestfriend. My gosh. It’s hard for me ~ especially I wanted to be around to both of them. But they don’t talk. And it’s starting to feel awkward.

My mum’s acting like a kid. She’s like “why do even like her…blah blah blah blah”.. I always wanted to answer back, but she might take it as disrespect or s/t. So I always.. i say ALWAYS, keep my mouth shut when we’re having that kind of conversation.

All I can say is, I’m not avoiding, I’m not and I won’t leave my bestfriend. EVER! Maybe she needs an attitude make over, but I just can’t rush it, I believe that God has better plans for her and her relationship with some people around her especially in her family. My bestfriend’s really nice and sweet. I just hope my mum would see that. I’m praying for it.

We can’t please everybody. [FACT]

.. Even that person who you thought would appreciate all those little stupid things you do.

It’s funny how I have this ability to turn people down when I want them to be happy. Pretty crazy, right? I know. You know what sometimes I question myself why can’t I just let myself get mad at some certain people. Well, I know I am furious, I really am. But I just can’t. 

So lesson learned today: People may not appreciate you, but God does. Especially if it’s pleasing in His eyes and if you do it to glorify Him by loving those people around you even though they rejected you. Jesus Christ had been there. But you know what’s sad? Some people keeps on rejecting Him up until now.